~Story oF My LiFe~

They had to made a SPECIAL bikini for her!!

2009-11-28T00:55:00.001-08:00

Worlds Tallest Model On Magazine Cover

The model — Eve — appears on the cover of the Australian men's magazine Zoo Weekly.

Guess how tall is her?

162-cm???

"No other magazine has put a woman who's nearly 7ft tall on the cover," editor Paul Merrill said.

"We had ... her bikini specially made, but it was worth it."

see how tall is her…. =.=”

"We had ... her bikini specially made, but it was worth it."

How can people be so blind about this?

2009-11-18T21:55:00.000-08:00

This picture is taken at Gurney Drive, Penang....

Today there are a lot of people who are not blind but pretended to be blind.They can see clearly and have brain to rationalize of what is the purpose of this facility, but are they brain dead or something?

This is so ridiculous for blind people to walk cross the road. Moreover, I believe that everyone is understood with these facilities. If this is meant for those who cant see to walk across the road, then how are they going to cross the road with the stupid car blocking the way?

This is very inconsiderate of Malaysian in Penang making life more difficult for the disable people who already face a lot of problems in their life.

LOOK at what SHE is MAKING......

2009-11-18T00:27:00.001-08:00

Do u see what i see??haha

If I’m a STORM WARRIOR

2009-11-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

Well.... STorm RIder.... i guess many of us remember many years back then... the first Storm rider Movie 1998... It stars Ekin Cheng as Wind and Aaron Kwok as Cloud, who become powerful warriors under the evil warlord Conquer

Now now... the Second movie is back... yahooo!! Storm Warriors

There are three ways to win prizes... ^_^

The Blog & Win contest, Answer & Win and Upload & Win contest for The Storm Warriors. You can check all this out in their minisite at www.gsc-eonbankcard.com .

if i'm a storm rider... first of all... I'll be aiding Wind and Cloud in battling the Evil Warlord Lord Godless. I guess two people are not enough... they will need me....

The Fire Storm Rider

Jeng jeng jeng....

Lol since they got wind, cloud... then add me in...
Fire... ^_^
Well..as the Fire Storm RIder..... i got to have some FIRE POWER.....

so...
BuRning!!!

More over... as a storm rider... i got to have a sword... right.....
well well well...

this is My SWORD....
CooL??

Stylish and Powerful...

Hm.. forget to mention.... Since I'm the latest Storm Rider.....
Guess i jz wear a Jacket and a jeans? XD

Be prepared all evil....
I will not be kind as Wind...I will show no mercy...
I am more powerful than Cloud... i mean much more powerful ^_^

I have only ONE objective.....
To DESTROY evil
wakakaka.... ^_^

Cant wait to watch this Movie.... ^_^ .. ... .... ..... not to mention about my secret weapon.... shhhhiiii!!! Secret means secret...
In case of our combination unable to win the evil warlord..
then i'll use this... Check it out..
My SUper ultimate side weapon...

Cool??
Not to forget.... every heroes have a sidekick....right? well..maybe some don't have...
anyway...

Introducing... my sidekick...

SuperDoggie.. ^_^

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where did he go ha?
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Aiks... there he is....
Since i'm still new to my fire power.. *too powerful till cannot control* hehe...
he always complaint that i accidentically burned his FUR or...
he beh tahan so close with me...and that's why.... he is always infront of the FAN....=.="

GUess wat...
Storm Warrior also have to sit for exam...
So.. Wind and Cloud...you two settle the Evil Warlord la... I'll come when i finish my exam.... ^_^

too many to study.... Martial Art Book, Art of War, Skills to learn, Power to discover
and bla bla bla....
Wish i can burn all those give-me-headache notes and books..

Anyway, hope i get the phone*yahoo*..... tickets and other stuffs ^_^

To Join
Check all the contest in the minisite at www.gsc-eonbankcard.com

Treatment in Custody

2009-08-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

There have been many reported cases of death while in the custody of the police, immigration department and prisons authorities.

This reflects badly not only on the relevant authorities but also our nation as a whole.

However, each year, many people die in custody.

...Anyway, Check out this clip...

2009-04-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

Haha...
Here i am after disappearing for quite some time....some much things to do and so little time i have. exam is coming... in less than 20 days... assignment due date is coming soon, and alot of notes waiting for me to flip them, arggg...

Streamyx so suck nowadays.. so slow... wtf... i pay RM66 for slow internet connection... sien la...

Someone is.........

2009-04-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you

someone
cares about you

someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided

someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right

someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes

someone
wants to give you a gift

someone
think you ARE a gift

someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you

someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts

someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you

someone
wants to protect you

someone
would do anything for you

someone
wants to be forgiven

someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

somebody
values your advice

someone
wants to tell you how much they care

someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms

someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms

someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of
you

someone
can't wait to see you

someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hears a song that reminds them of you

someone
wants you to know they are there for you

someone
is glad that you're their friend

someone
wants to be your friend

someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is wishing that you would notice them

someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you

someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you

2009-04-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

"The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life." (Sir Hugh Walpole)

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing

Love

2009-04-02T04:56:00.000-07:00

Love can be SUPER sweet sometimes,
It's all depends on how we going to tolerate with each other,
Argument simply means how care about you,
It's all about caring of each other, laughing and smiling together.
It's all about our happiness.
I love spending time with you.

Sometimes, i said something wrong,
Something that hurts you, even i didn't even realize,
I wish i knew,
I wish i can prevent myself from doing that,
To Love is to experience, happiness and sadness
Even its about hurting really really much,
But, I just care...
Tell me about it,
And I'll change, I'll change for you,
I WILL...
It's about how much i love you
And how Deep i LOve you...

Giving my everything just to make a smile at your face,
Without asking anything for return,
Never hope for it either,
JUST a simple smile will do...
Love is about sacrificing.
You know and feel my sacrificial?
Even you don't,
It will be worth it
And i'll willing to go for it
But i knew you do~

I will protect you from everything,
I'll be your shield,
I'll be side by side with you
Holding your hand, and walk together with you,
I'll be slightly behind you,
Just in case you fall, I'll make it to hold you back...
I won't let you fall...
Love is about protecting.
Using what i have, to care and love you
All the time,
What matters is that...
You are safe....

I love You
and
that's the beginning of MY everything

Leng Cai Leng Lui

2009-02-22T04:20:00.000-08:00

http://lengchailenglui.blogspot.com/

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Author,

This blog specially created to keep us closer since we had been separated from our beloved hometown. so please visit frequent.

kick ass,

bean

my 1000th visitor....

2009-02-11T02:20:00.000-08:00

I haven been blogging quite for some time already....
Quite busy nowadays with alot of stuff in mind, assignments, and things to be done....
anyways....
as for this...
this is my first 1000th visitor...
hahha

Journey of the Bear Bear~

2008-12-25T23:55:00.001-08:00

“Tomorrow is the day…. I have to “seludup” myself into the car before anyone realize”

“Let me see, I think if I wrap myself in this plastic bag… no one will realize me…

Have to be quick… the day is coming”

yea.. here should be fine.. no one will find me here....

OMG someone coming….. argggg… mission fail…..

Someone found me…

“hmm… nvm nvm… haven found me ‘yet’..haha”

Still haven blow my cover…~hiding~

Omg…. Cannot breath.. ~HELP HELP~

Huhuhuhu… luckily I did not tied myself to tight….

~I’m alive~

Oh no…. the car is moving…..

Safety first…

~Where’s the seat belt~

Huhuhu… I’m safe…..

~SEAT BELT~

Sweating….

“on air con pls”

"Huh??? Who’s at behind?"

"OMG what are this bear-shape person doing inside my car?"

"Argg…. I’ve been discovered…"

@_@

Haha

Nvm... i'll continue my mission with this guy~

LOLz

ops.... here she come.... ready.....

**Pray she likes me...**

Yea

Mission accomplished...

finally i found her.....

see...

she likes me......

wakkakakakka

~Merry Christmas dear~

On this eve of Christmas,
I'll have you near beside me,
all the time
and
I'll put my hands around you,
And hold you close to me.

My darling dear,

No matter what I get for Christmas
You're all that I would really need.

My mind filled with a lot of things
That words alone can't describe it,
This comes especially for you
With love on Christmas Day.

~I Love You~

Study hard = success in exam?

2008-12-07T22:16:00.001-08:00

In order to succeed well in any examination it is necessary to study. Therefore if one studies hard for an examination, he or she will be successful in his or her studies. so how far do you agree on this??

Study hard = success in exam?

What I think is we must study for our examination, however study hard doesn’t means he or she will successful in his or her studies. Some student that not even study inside class can get a good results in their examination whereas some student study the whole time may even get the worst results compared to the other student that less study. Thus this shows if one study hard, doesn’t necessary he or she will be successful in their studies.

Memorizing or Understanding?

Somehow if we put a lot of effort in studying for the examination, surely we’ll receive the rewards. However, this concern with how we manage our studies. Some student study the hard way by memorizing whereas some other student study the smart way by understanding of the subject. Both of ways of studying definitely affects the results of our results. For example, some smart student only spend 2 hours study and concentrate 100% inside class, if we study the smart way, we do not need to waste unnecessary time on study hard for 10 hours a day for some student. We can use the time to do some other things such as completing assignments or coursework. Thus, this shows that we do not need to study hard to succeed, but study smart to excel in examinations.

Last minutes?

For example, some student relax all the way from the beginning of the semester till the end, then final exam around the corner, they begin to study hard. This way of study is good for some student that weak in memorizing, but, in this way they do not learn. If we spend our time to learn and know deep into the subject, instead of memorizing, definitely we’ll able to remember for a long period of time, whereas, if we memorize, surely we’ll forget after the exam are over.

Are these the level of our education level?

By memorizing? This is the results of many unemployed graduates today, because of they unable to apply what they have learn on their working area due to forget what they learn after the examinations or memorizing.

What we need to do?

we need to study in order to success in examination, however we do not need to study hard, but by study smart or study the correct way, we also will be able to excel in both our examinations and life.

Missing you

2008-12-07T21:55:00.001-08:00

Without you in my life,
I feels empty,
No sense of direction,
lost my purpose of life.

Without your presence,
When you are far away from me,
There is a strange feeling deep inside my heart,
Feeling of wanting you more and more,
I think this is the feeling of missing someone.

Without your voice,
My whole world become quite silent,
as if my ear are being plugged,
I want to hear you out.

Without your smile,
I see things in just two colour,
Just black and white,
Your presence light up my life.

Dear
Just want you to know that
I miss you so much
~KeLViN_cH'Ng~

Bowling

2008-12-05T03:14:00.000-08:00

Bowling is a game in which we attempt to score points by rolling a bowling ball along a flat surface either into objects called pins or to get close to a target ball.
I recall that when the last time i play bowling is with my friends at One-Stop Midlands. At beginning its quite hard as my skill already "rust" de... haha... What to do? Sapu clean the longkang for several times. After some times, things get warm up and

First of all, where do you learn your bowling skills? Through a coach? or simply hang out with friends and go for the bowling center and start throw the ball? Well let me start the ball rolling by providing some tips for beginners.

Step 1: friends and determination
Head towards the bowling alley. Call for some friends or teachers who can coach you about all you need to know about bowling. It would be better to see carefully when your teacher start roll the ball. Each people has their own style of throwing. So, try to throw it yourself.

Step 2: The Bowling equipments
You can either rent or borrow both your bowling ball. Mostly the balls are arranged and for sure you wont have any problems finding it. Rent your bowling shoes and make sure you find the right shoe size. Same goes to the bowling balls; find the ball which is has the suitable weight for you. Then here goes, head down to the lane to practice. If possible, find a lane that is away from other bowlers so you won't be distracted and get embarased when your ball "masuk longkang" haha..Your bowling ball is simply a sphere with holes in it. You put your middle finger and your ring finger into the holes to get a grip on the ball before releasing it toward the pins. There are three ways to grip the bowling ball.
Step 3: Patient
Some lucky bowlers can get spares or even strikes with little or no skill, but that is not the norm. So, don't get discouraged when you first start bowling if you only hit a few pins or send your ball to the gutter aka "longkang". This is absolutely normal. If you concentrate on what you are doing and listen to your instructor, your game will get better.

Step 4: Steps
Most bowlers take three steps forward before they release the bowling ball. This will generally give you the correct approach and follow through needed to get the ball to reach the pins. Focus on the arrows, markers and dots on the lane to help guide your ball to its target.

Steps 5: Practice makes perfect
Bowling is fun and not too difficult, but you won't become a pro overnight. If you want to improve as a bowler, you have to practice and listen to your instructor.

Accidents happen so be extra careful about it.

1.hold the bowling ball carefully and do not drop it.
2.when throw the ball, carefull with your finger, do not stuck too in.
3.Wear appropriate size of shoe.
4.Do not show off by using heavier balls.
5.DO DO DO not wear RING!!!

~Warning~
18SG

For 18+ with non-excessive violent/horrifying scenes

Emotionally prepared

Prepare yourself!!

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Bowling Tips For The Beginner
By Peter J Lee

Baby-jumping Festival?

2008-12-05T02:52:00.000-08:00

Guess wat. i receive mail recently about this weird festival.

Shocking that this kind of festival exist in somewhere in thid world

Baby-jumping Festival?

OMGz?

The Baby-jumping Colacho Festival is a real annual event celebrated all over Spain since the 1620s. It consists of grown men dressed as the Devil leaping over helpless babies.

Know why they do this?

They claim that they represent the devils that, when they jump, they take all the evil with them leaving the babies clean of evil.

How is accident happens? Can you imagine this? if accidents happen where the man fall down on the baby? or he step on the baby's head? body? The baby are so fragile, weak and small. if accidents happen, who gonna responsible over this matter? Innocent life of the baby suddenly gone because of an accident...

Can you believe it? Believe it...

Selling Account

2008-12-05T02:04:00.000-08:00

Perfect World (ENG_M'sia) Oracle server lvl92 WaRrioR

Selling Account
whoever interested please contact me or leave me a comment
Mr Ong 016-4972053
Price are negotiable
Only in Penang

2008-12-04T20:45:00.000-08:00

Lying is bad right?
So when someone lies to you,
Does that always means a bad thing??

Well, for some aspect its ok because lying is not necessarily signifies bad things, sometimes people lies for some good intention. Protecting someone maybe?

But when you found out about it, even that the person lies to for own good, but how do you think of them? can you still trust them? still things get complicated where you gonna form a new perception toward that people. so, can you imagine how complex the things can be?

On the other hand, this also means betrayal. when you really believe in a person but in return what you get is all lies. the person that you believe in lies to you. can you imagine how terrible things could be? COuld you imagine when the truth that we used to believe throughout for some period is all fake. How do you feels that time?

When you discover the truth, people are still denying the truth that they are lying. Human being are so complex. What's wrong with admiting the mistake and seek for forgiveness. Yet they tries to twist the truth by covering us their mistakes. People often says...

"I was trying to tell you that but..."
"I have no intention to lie to you..."
"I did not know why i do so..."
"I just worried that you'll mad so..."
"No, no, no... how would i lied to you, i was just..."

And lots lots more...

Some form of lies that will never end, once you cheated then you'll continue cheating for the second times. If your lies haven being discover, don think that you are being so careful. God knows. One day, eventually the truth will turn out. haha...

However, once you being discovered, people tend not to believe you as much as the previous days. Things will never be the same again.

So, try not to lie to your friends and also your partners. Even for good intention, explain thoroughly and get people to understand you would not able to cover up your mistakes.

Wound will heal overtimes but scars will remain for life.

Voice Of PikaChu

2008-12-03T22:58:00.000-08:00

Pok'emon
Guess all of us heard of this word before right? if you haven, then how about pikachu?
If you really haven, then where have you been in this past 8 years lol

Flash back to the last 6 years ago, fresh inside my head that i was a pokemon freak, lol. Pokemon comics, games, cards and pictures all over in my life. haha. As i recall i even drew a 10 page pokemon comic.
i even "invested" alot in the pokemon trading card game. today i still remember precisely how many cards that i've collected and money flew out from my wallet for those Pkmon Guess wat, i've gone to Pokemon League... LOL!!

Now now....
Remember pikachu?
"piKaCHuuuu!!!!"
I thought that the voice of pikachu was a computer-made or voice altered from programs. Guess what? i jz realise that it came from the voice actress, Ohtani Ikue.
Check this out...
I was surprise the when the voice came out from her mouth...lol

I love you

2008-11-30T10:31:00.000-08:00

Today love has different meaning and different significance where people tend to misuse the word I love you. Today, we use the word I love you freely and frequently as a norm in our life. This word doesn’t not have the same meaning as what it used to be. It has just turn out and become another word. We use this word repeatedly and do not realize that we don’t really understand the meaning real of the word.

I love you is suppose to mean that I am in love with you. But today’s “I love you” is a whole lot different version that what it suppose to meant. Sometimes people don’t really mean on what they say, but still the word “I love you” fell out from their mouth. If we do not mean it, then better if we do not say it. What is the point of saying “I love you” just to make the person happy even though you know you do not feel of what you’re saying?

Indeed that people would want to hear those three words, those magic words. But do you want to hear the truth or just those 3 words? Or you would rather the person that you love tells you that he/she likes you a lot and cares of you so much? But still without those three words, you will still know that he/she means it and he really loves you.

So, which one do you prefer? But still, it wouldnt be perfect without those 3 words, so avoid hurting your partners and use the magic world where and when we really mean it and truly came from your heart.

Dear,

I just want you to know that,

Every word that i said to you and i really mean it,
Every single words that i mention to you,
So, when i said that i love you,
i really mean that,
that i love you forever,
and still I am gonna keep on loving you,
Cause its the only thing i wanna do,
I just wanna keep on loving you.

~KeLViN_cH'Ng~

Like and love

2008-11-30T09:27:00.000-08:00

How do you know when u met someone that truly meant for you? How can u assure that she/he is the one that you love? can you differentiate between loving someone and liking someone?

When u love someone, you'll do anything that even all the crazy things that you can't explain. Even its a lie, you will keep deny it and believe that its the "truth".

When you love someone, you felt it deep inside your heart and NOThing else that would change your mind about that. You are willing to sacrifice everything without having a second thought. You wont think twice about it and risk it all. regardless of how much that coming infront of you.

What differentiate between like and love is…

In front of the person you love, you will felt your heart pounds faster than usual. But in front of the person that you like, you will just be happy.

When the person that you love are around, you have the tendency to be shy
But in front of the person you like, you are more likely to show yourself.

When facing the person that you love, you hardly say everything that you have inside your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can talk freely out of what you have inside you coconut head..xD

If you look into the eyes of the person that you love, you will know that she/he is the one that meant for you,
But if you look into the eyes of the person that you like, you will just smile.

Beside the person that you love, time pass very fast, but every second is the happiest moment that you ever felt,
But in front of the person you like, every second that past just means happy moment that you spend with.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The person that you love, their faces comes into your mind almost every second,

But the person that you like, you will just be happy when you think about them.

You can just stop like the person that you used to like, but
For the person that you love, its not as easy as it can be because love will remain inside your heart and become part of you.

2008-11-28T03:51:00.000-08:00

My finals finally ended.
Kinda hard and some paper i did badly...
haha..**how bad could that be**
Holiday right now...
One month break...
Super free don't know what to do..
Looking forward for Dec camp.. haha
also,
Can't wait for the result to come out. xD

Funny Exam Answer

2008-11-13T22:13:00.000-08:00

I cant recall who emailed me these…
Check it out.. super funny!!
These kids are really crazy!
I wonder why they answer really submitted those answer up......
Click on the pictures to see a larger view!!

FiNaL Exam..

2008-11-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

Well.. as usual.. here i am, at the end of my forth semester.. my final exam..

my exam are just around the corner... which means... this coming Sun..yet, i'm still here, blogging..=.=

and I really hate it.. some 60% some 50% and even some 70% from the overall are from the final paper.. so that gonna decide on my grade..

wonder why my carry marks for my MIS paper....

so low....sux man!!

well.. my paper start 16th 17th 18th 20th and 25th to all my friend.. GOOD LUCK

luckily on my day do not have any exam^^

Hopefully my exam not gonna be like ~Mr Bean~ lolz

2008-11-12T00:15:00.000-08:00

"An old chapter of my life has closed and...
...a new one has just opened..."

Each & every day

2008-11-08T22:15:00.000-08:00

Each & every day,

Before I went to sleep,

Before I rest my eyes,

I think of you,
When I wake up,

The first person that came to my mind is,

You.

I think of you every day,

Each & every day,
I only think of you,

I miss you every moment,

Even we are far away,

But my mind is always thinking of you,

All the time
At night when I pray
I pray only just for you

Hoping that you will be fine always,

Wishing that you are happy and health all the time.

Each & every day,

I love you,

And I will always… always love you,
No matter what they say,

No matter where they say,

No matter when they say,

No matter why they say,

No matter who they are,

No matter how they say,

JUST remember that…
Remember I am always here for you,

Each & every day,

Just remember that,

And if Tomorrow Never Comes,

I just want you to know that,

I love you…

Perspective

2008-11-04T22:15:00.000-08:00

One day a father and his rich family took his young son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family.

When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"Very good, Dad!""Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked."Yeah!" "And what did you learn?"The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon.When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.

His son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are!" Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things?

If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude toward life, you've got everything!You can't buy any of these things. You can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc., but if you are poor of spirit, you have nothing!

Author - Author Unknown (Source: Source Unknown)

What Considered a "Good" Life?

2008-11-04T21:23:00.000-08:00

Undeniably, happiness is the ultimate goal of every human being in this world sought for. But, is happiness really that important? Without a doubt, a life without happiness is a meaningless life. People would not go through hard work every day to earn money to support their life in the future. People will no longer make wishes, no more dreams and aims in life, and amount of money is this world means nothing without happiness. This shows that happiness is indeed a very important factor in our life. However, HAVE we been overestimated the meaning of happiness?

If our life only consist of good memories and happiness, will our life will just become meaningless??? How would you want your life be?? Happiness is the ultimate goal of all men sought of in this world. What we work so hard for and what we are doing today is to aim for a happy life in the future. Are you willing to do anything.... yes! ANYTHING.. to get a happy life?? ARE YOU?
Using what ever means necessary to obtain the so-called happiness? WHen you obtained the the so-called happiness, are you happy with it?

MONEY!! is really this piece of paper bring happiness to you? ~yes, of course~ People believe that, with money life would be happier, easier, contented and so on. In reality, money does have a link or connection with happiness. Some researches shows money actually brings happiness until certain extend. It seems like people have overestimate the importance of happiness in their life. Happiness is important but so as the difficult times of our life. The suffering and the hard times that everyone go through will make up one’s life and this will make our like become more meaningful.

Life is a continuous sequence of experience where each of us has to face in life. Whether the experience are good or bad but eventually both of the experience will help us in our life and making life contented and more meaningful. This is why everyone’s life should consist of highs and lows.

Perhaps life would be better off if it only consist of happiness instead of sadness and misery??

Love is the greatest feeling

2008-10-23T03:27:00.000-07:00

Love is the greatest feeling that i ever had,
Love is like a play,
Love is what i feel for you,
Each and every single day without you, life will never be the same.
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song
Love is like a greatest feeling
and
That's keep us going strong each day,
I love you with all my heart and my soul,
I love the way i keep loving you,
Like a force of love that even i cannot control,
So remember when your eyes meets mine,
then you'll know that i love you with all my heart
and
I've poured my entire soul into you.
Right from the very start...

I love you,
~Dear~

Digital Colouring

2008-10-02T21:37:00.001-07:00

Forgetting Sarah Marshall

2008-09-30T05:48:00.001-07:00

It starts with this guy Peter Bretter who was dating this girl Sarah and she ends up breaking up with him because of another guy dumps him for an English rock star, Aldous Snow no idea... hahaha.. Later on, he gone through the whole hell-like breakup moment and he took some advice from docs, friends, etc.. well, after quite a numbers of one-night stands, **womanizer...lol** he ends up by a rebound where he ended up crying and crying and crying because he recall the memories with Sarah. **sad sad sad**. After that, Peter finally takes his step-brother Brian’s advice to go for vacation to clear up his mind of her. Guess wat, he ends up going to Hawaii where he is AGAIN confronted by his worst nightmare. Haha!! He ends up meeting Sarah and her new boyfriend. WHAT a coincident!! The world is so small! **what a luck**

At the first 10++ minutes, we learned two things:

1) Peter being dumped by Sarah after 5 years plus.

2) Peter showing us his penis.**zzz..wondering how he's going to move on with his life**

~I wonder if the Penis scene necessary~

At first, the hotel initially didn’t have any rooms open except for a super expensive suite but, lucky for Peter, a hotel employee, Rachael, pity and felt bad for him so she gave him the suite. **HmHmHm** where she later on interested in him, hanging with him, getting him involved in some confidence-building activities, and etc. In addition, he also meets a series of people whom help him "forget" Sarah. All this eventually around making him feels better about himself and also the break-up. Later on after all this and that, Peter comes to a bit of “self-realization” about who he actually want to be with and what he wants to do with life in the future. Funny scene when sarah shows her jealousy and soon after found out her new boyfriend was ten times worse than Peter was, it was already too late.

I found the movie to be somehow similar to what I used to be last time.

Someone who ever had their heart ripped out and cut into a billion pieces.

2008-09-23T21:39:00.000-07:00

any comment???? haha

SOmething FrOm The Past

2008-09-21T23:24:00.000-07:00

My past has made me who i am today. I cant change it nor go in time to fix back what ever things that we have done wrong. We can only go forward in time. Move on and look forward. We shape our lives with the decisions we make today and in the past. Our future and our destiny is not predetermined. Our choices will determine how our relationships turn out. Make use of our past as a guideline for you to become a better person in the future.

While i was looking around my stuff..
I found this...
Something i kept for quite some time already,
A present from someone...
Hm..
As i recall, it has been few years already..
about 5 years already?
And also... this...
wonder what is this?
yes... a key!

Fight and Defend!

2008-09-16T20:15:00.000-07:00

Life is short, as human beings we are unconstrained to make our own precious option. If you keep doubt yourself on everything or every time, you are wasting your time. Ever think of this question? What will happen next? What will happen in the future? Where will I end to if I choose this way? And where would I end up choosing that way? No one knows the answer and there’s no way you can know your future if you keep wondering. Choose you way correctly and FIGHT for it. Put in efforts and defend what you believe!!

Special Person?

2008-09-16T20:04:00.000-07:00

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call!

You are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the emails or SMS messages in your phone because of one message from that special someone.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend”, but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction.

You care about that person and yet you denied it

You realize that you cannot do everything well and always think of something else when the special person is not there.

You think of this special person every minute, yet you scared admit it.
if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person (NO DOUBT)

what you're waiting

2008-09-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

Love is something unique, whether it strikes at us now or future, it’s surely one process that everyone will surely have to gone through one day. It'll be always brings an indefinable feelings and emotions that hardly describe in any words. It can only be felt and sense, and totally intangible and untouchable. Only those who are responsible for it will really know what goes in it. Being in love the greatest things that ever happen to me. Life is short, as human beings we are entitled to make our own precious choices. To those who are single, let me ask you all one question. Do you want life to be blessed with happiness and love? Don’t you want to be loved? Who doesn't? Then what you're waiting for? Find yourself a love one. XD

What is love?

2008-09-16T19:56:00.001-07:00

What is love? Anyone can tell me your definition of love? Guess there’s no definite answer though. Basically, love is one of the most complicated questions for all human being. As time has passed by, many relationships have bloomed and so as love. But still, no one able gives a proper definition of love. No one yet! To some people “Love is a friendship that sets on fire”. You definitely have to go all the way around discovering it”. No matter how you define love or how much you feel it, love is for sure, the essential in for everyone that ever lives.
Anyway
Let me know how you define love, k?

Realistic World...

2008-09-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

Love is blind. But definitely the world is a different world from what we watch in drama or movies. This world is realistic. If we make the wrong choice, that going to be our life already.
Even though the choice is wrong but if we realize and turn back instead of keep wrong and wrong. There is always never too late to turn back. The wrong path will never be the right path if we did not realize and turn back. The wounded part will never heal if we left it unattended.

Even if you were had another try
A chance to start over,
do you think that you2 could make it?
But if you were had the choice
The decision to make
Do you know how to make the right choice?
If there’s a chance
would you ever even take it?

As easy as memorizing a. b. c.

2008-09-09T02:36:00.001-07:00

Today when I wake up. The first things I think of is you. The image of you pop up automatically in my head. Your sweet smile, your soft voice, and all about you just came up in my mind. Not just in the morning, but also all the day. Thinking about you all day just having the feeling you in my head makes me so happy. But when I start to think that if I can’t have you, then just break into pieces and scattered all over. I don't think there anyone in this world that would able to replace you. Ever. Still, I hope that I can rest my worries but this impossible. I do not know what you think about me. Whether you ever think that I annoy you or you hate me or the opposite. But it seems like you to be my only key. Those 3 words I longing to say. But, as I think over day by day, I believe you would run away from me. The possibility is high and it was so as easy as memorizing a. b. c.

Unpredicted future

2008-09-09T02:35:00.001-07:00

You do not know or could not predicted the future ahead of us. You do not know whether I’ll change into a different person in the future. But I know that if you do not accept the truth today, there will never be a future of us. And you also will never know the future.
Today, I realize a fact.
There are no such things as meant to be.
In this life we have to work for everything that we want.
Even to protect someone, we must be ready to sacrifice.
How if she really meant to be with me?
Funny when think back as I said those words before.
We just have to stand firm on decision that we have made and be strong and believe in the choice we made.
Love is blind VS realistic world.

The war that rages inside my head

2008-09-09T02:34:00.000-07:00

I’m so tired today
It feels that the war just ended
The war that rages inside my head. I almost lose my sanity and my calmness. There’s one kind of feelings that still haunted me. Still I couldn’t stop running from it. However I cant face it also. Frankly, I just don’t know what I should do. People keeps talk about me. Whether good or bad, that’s beyond my knowledge. But I aware that nothing that I can do. A friend ask me before, why I’m different from before? Guess even myself does not have the answer as I, myself don’t even realize.
Wonder why and what people talk about me anyway?
My life is an open book. I’m willing to share anything. No games and no lies. This is what I think of right now. As me anything you want but do not accuse me of something that is not the truth.

Something that I’ve done is not appreciated

2008-09-09T02:33:00.002-07:00

Something that I’ve done is not appreciated. How sad is that? What for I’m doing that and why am I doing so? Guess if there is no one to appreciate what I’m doing, I think its better for me to quit doing it. This is so unlike me.
The story of my life should be a chapter that full with happiness and cheers.
Why my blog have turn into this?
I hate this so much and I’m so miserable right now.
Doesn’t seems that there is anyone to talk to.
Right on this moment, 8th September, 2.14pm
I feels my life is so empty. Nothing.
Black and white. That’s what I see things right now.
Nothing to do. No one to talk to. And absolutely nothing I can do.
My blog is the only things that I can do.
I do hope that no one ever reads this. but deep inside my heart a tiny thought of I hope that someone read this too.

Something has change

2008-09-09T02:33:00.001-07:00

Something has change in me. Something that myself even myself did not realize till now. Does this shows a good sign of change? Or something bad that I not suppose to change of? I do not know and I wish I knew. Today I have a bad dream. Some dream that makes me regret of something that I did not take my courage in doing it. The things that really makes me think of WHY I did not complete the things. Something that I should have done quite some time ago but I did not do it. This really makes me regret thinking of it. Why why?
I begin to hate myself. I do not have confident on this kind of matter. I do not have the courage to do it. Unlike in class, for every Question, there is always an exact answer. However in this, there is no exact answer. But I knew that if I did not have the courage to do it, how can I see the changes?
I’m so tired.
Tired of the war that rages in my head.
War of opposition styles and ways of thinking. I’m so tired of all this.
Maybe I think too much. Something that I should not have think of. But if I do not think of it. Does it solve the problems? Its beyond my control. Someway somehow I just regretted of everything that happen and every steps that I’ve taken.
I’m so tired of my life. my appearance does shows a happy and have no worries character. However, am i?
I’m just tired of all that happens.
Guess I’ll stay out of everything for time being.

8th September 2008

2008-09-07T21:40:00.000-07:00

Here today 8th September 2008, 12.35pm, sitting down here thinking and doubt myself. what have i become. why have i done such way and why am i reacting in that particular manner. something missing makes me realize that that something is so important in my life. something that cannot be replaceable. something that you cannot find it by just go for shopping in shopping mall or open ur internet and find it through net. something that i've been missing and that means alot to me. sitting here calmly taking a deep breath and i've thought through of it.
i missed you alot.

2nd July 2008

2008-09-07T19:08:00.000-07:00

Today, 2^nd July 2008

Dear Diary,

Today my heart has skipped a beat,

What?
I was so excited till I lost my mind,

Why?

A girl was walking down the street,
Who?

It was her,

How?

Her beauty was one-of-a-kind,

Somehow she was different from other day

I waited her for a little while,

Somewhere in her neighborhood,

I’m suppose to meet her for dinner,

Patiently, uncomplainingly, tolerantly, unwearyingly

I wait for her,

Although she turns out quite late,

However that does not bothers me,

It was worth waiting.

She was so beautiful that day.

She has done many cute things,
I observed her silently
Just following her around was fun,
It was like in movies,

Dear diary,

This day

The chance to see,
Everything I saw in her today,
And it's possible she could be,
The one that can actually makes my heart beat stops.

Key to my heart

2008-09-07T19:07:00.001-07:00

There is this girl who can makes my heart beats faster

every time she looks at me,

everytime she smile at me,

everytime she talk to me,

even sometimes she able to,
She makes me smile all the way
She makes me laugh out loud
She makes me mad somehow
She makes me sad sometimes

People been asking, wondering, questioning
What's so great about her anyway

Why am I falling on her?
She seems like any college girls at early twenties,
To tell you the truth I don't even know the answer why
Why my feelings for her are holding me strongly
In my heart
She has the key to my heart

If only you knew...

2008-09-07T19:01:00.000-07:00

If only you knew,

You are the reason of,

me waking up in this morning,

with a smile,
You are the reason of,

me cant wait to go to bed each night,

To met you in my dreams,

Night and day hardly past,

if I never thought of you.

If only you knew,

That you are my medicine,
because I’m addicted,
to just being with you,
this is just my silly thought,
because I knew it won’t become true,

But I’m looking forward to it.

If only you knew,

The way I feel towards you ,
is unexplainable by any words
I wish I knew how you think of me,
and if you ever told me..that would be totally unbelievable,

And that was the greatest news in my life.

If only you knew,

How I really feel towards you,
the way I sees you,
The thought of you in my mind,
the reason why I love you,
If only you really knew.

Simple sign...

2008-09-07T18:59:00.000-07:00

Everyday call me if you can
Everyday call me when you can
Everyday call me all the time
Each day for a thousand times.

Sometimes, little things that you do, words that you said, way of you react,
And how little the things are, it does matter,
To me, the things that you gave me more than a gift,
It was a precious souvenir only from you,
Sms me to prove that you care,
As what I do each moment,
To check if you are alright there,
Just a simple sign of I do care and concern

Once I heard a story.......

2008-09-07T18:55:00.000-07:00

Once I heard a story, a story seems I knew it even before I hear it.

It’s about a guy and how his world turns up side down
All of this started when he met this girl. The perfect girl that would just make his life complete
Ever since the first time they talked, all he can do is think of her every moment,

he just think of her and that’s makes his hearts beats faster
and it beats even stronger each times since that day, the day he met her,

Since that day, he decided to gave her his heart and says “My heart beats for you”

Somehow thing does not goes well. There are always obstacles or barrier.

Unlike fairy tales, thing often goes well and there is a happy ending waiting.

How’s reality?

It’s hard to find someone that we truly love.

That girl that complete his life, but is he the guy that will be completed the girl’s life?

When he saw her in front of her, before he knew it his mouth opened and come out "hi"

She just smiled, Everyday they talked a little more and more,

And each day he began to like her a more than before

He realize that how life has to be, eventually everything becomes our past
But your memories will always last, our past remains inside our memory.
With that, he knew that not all love is meant to be,

Things cannot be let it be natural and happen on their own,

Happiness is in our hand and it’s up to us to grab it with our own hand
we have to learn to hold on and don't give in easily
to stand tall and prepare to sacrifice anything
And also believe in ourselves

Because…

The day will eventually come

When we have to protect what we think is right, the one that we loves
Open our eyes to see things no one could ever see
I know this because..

This is a story about me...

Memories…

2008-08-03T08:26:00.001-07:00

Memories…
Well… today when I was keeping my stuff, I accidently found my photo albums which consist of my childhood pictures… although I can’t recall much but this sure brings back memories back then.

First of all… this is me and my second bro… swimming and playing, somewhere at Batu Ferringgi beach. Well guess which one is me…
Hm?
Hehe.. I’m the one sitting down with a ball…volley ball

Same goes here recognize which one is me?
Hm hm….
Seems we always went to beach…. I can’t recall the time. Most probably 1-3pm? I can feel my skin burning here…
Hot lo… sun burn liao….haha
I seems surprise with so much food on the table…wakaka get to eat till stomach full full… dig in all…
Well… I’m sure that this is not my birthday… but for sure is, there is plenty of food to eat… yum yum..

Next is when I am at kindergarten.

Kawaiii??? Hehe here I definitely look short… haha..
This picture was hanged on my house’s wall.
Every day I get to look at this picture and remind me of that day.
I still remember these days clearly…
Because... I am supposed to find a black shoe which I don’t have.
So…
Ta da…. Poof!! (see yourself)

As for this picture, I do not recall taking this picture. Some of my friend gave it to me.. well.. how do I look? With lipstick…hoho….

You are always on my mind

2008-07-31T21:25:00.000-07:00

You are always on my mind every moment, every minutes, every second,

from the time i wake up every morning, till i close my eyes at night,

she's everywhere i go, i thinking of you every time,

you are all and the only i know,

although you're so far away from me,

but the feelings just keep getting stronger and stronger,

every time every day.

a FACT

2008-07-30T19:09:00.000-07:00

Today I realize a fact.

The fact that I never expect to hear it with my own ears and see it with my eyes.

I don’t even know and realize before this. I never wanted things to happen this way and somehow it turns out to be one. I took my time thinking, and sometimes I think I should not just see things only from my own perspective. I should listen to what people have to say and hear them out.

I’ve been thinking a lot, what did I do till people change their perception towards me? I really want to know. I know and clear on what I’m doing.

Sitting down here thinking, some part of what they said is just some misunderstanding. However all of this is cause from myself. Thinking I have to do something before things get worst. Prevention….

A Question...

2008-07-30T19:08:00.000-07:00

My friend ask me a question recently
What do I think of distance relationship?
Will you accept some that lives miles away from you to be your partner?
Somehow I have a bad perception about this “distance relationship” anyhow, different people have different way of think and thought.
I never think of this answer for this question. Friend around me also involve in this kind of relationship. Recently in newspaper I also read about this, and obviously I have negative thought about this.
Maybe there is a pro and con in this matter but what I have in mind is only the negative perception...
“I don’t think this kind of relationship will last long. This is because you don’t have any idea about what your partner doing miles away from you. Even the advancement of the technology today will be able to connect both of you two every second but, can you believe every single thing that he says? You don’t even know whether he is lying or not. On sms, if ones possess a good vocabulary, sweet or lovely word easily type out. On phone, you hardly know whether he is lying to you. Somehow I think everyone agree that if you face to face communicate to your partner, you will be able to know him better. But through phone and sms, all of this can be done? Even people that around us can cheat on you, why can’t him? And when time pass, you will not able to stand by just facing your computer and phone everyday just to keep you two connected. Will you be satisfied just like that?”
Different story if you knew a person and he transfer to other place^^
Once you make your decision I hope you would not regret lo..hehe.. as a friend advising you is the only things that I can do.. and hope you will not doing the wrong decision and choice la…

When...

2008-07-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

When I online ...
i look for your name on my msn friend list...

When i listen to any love song,
your face pop up in my mind

When I am alone,
I wish you are here

When I am happy,
I hope you are there to share my happiness

When i am sad,
i wish you able to comfort me

When i thinking of you
i wonder you ever think of me

When i sms you,
i want you to know i am thinking of you

when my phone vibrate
i hope it was your msgs/calls

When i close my eyes,
i can imagine your face in my mind

.…I just want to say I MISS you….

~GuY FacTs~

2008-07-01T19:30:00.000-07:00

Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you,
He wants to be with you.
When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you.
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong.
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes, he means it.
When a guy stares at you,
He wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When your laying your head on a
guy's chest,
He has the world.
When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday,
He is in love with you.
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
He means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you,
He's with you til you're done.
When a guy says, "I miss you",
He misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

====================================

My version of Mr. Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you,
He misses you and wanted to hear your voice.
When a guy is quiet,
He's wanted you to care and concern him.
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong and regret for it.
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes,
He really means it.
When a guy stares at you,
He hope that you would care and concern about him and wonders if do you feels the same?
When your laying your head on a
guy's chest,
That would be the happiest moment in his life
When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday,
He is in love with you, definitely!
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
He means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you,
No one could replace you in his life.
When a guy says, "I miss you",
He misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else in this world.

more than just friend

2008-06-18T21:05:00.001-07:00

I have these special feeling deep inside my heart that I really scared to express out. In my mind, deepest thoughts and deep inside my head, I can sense that you are special to me. I was just looking for a friend but I found more than that. I found a special soul mate that I never expect it turn out to be you. I do not want to rush things up. I do not want to take the risk. I do not want to rush us right now. In friendship, there is still a lot of things that we can explore, things that we can share, happiness and joy that we can share with. But I know there is a growing warmth deep inside me. I could not just ignore that but I just do not want to rush things up and regret in the future. I enjoy every single second that we spend together. I will appreciate and remember that. We are so free and comfortable when we are together. I have been thinking of you a lot when I’m alone. I message you and think of you every night. I miss you. I feel that we have so many things to share, so many secrets to uncover together. And also a whole new life that awaits us both to discover in the future. I do not know what I should do. Am I making the right decision? Will I regret doing this? I do not know where we are heading or how and when our road together will end. But as for now, you are truly someone special. You are more than JUST a friend.

What for and for what?

2008-06-13T21:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we make our life miserable by doing something that different from before, just to make people surround us to notice us. I believe everyone done this before, right? Why torturing ourselves like that? What for and for what? No point keeping quite beside and wait for people to realize you. What if people really do not notice anything? Blame them for that reasons? Answer this question, WORTH IT???

When in a group of friends, there is a risk you do this. Why if they really do not notice you? We may have a lot of friends and you will just lost among all our friends. Sometimes you will think, what sort of best friends that forget best friends? But if you already can say that you are best friends then what for you doing all this? Could not do anything so you stop talking and be quite? Stop talking will just make you feel sad, being neglected and increase your anger. As a friend, main reason going out together is to be happy and have fun. Why make yourself like a stranger to your entire friend? Think back your friends neglected you and treated you as stranger or you make yourselves become a stranger to us.

Instead of doing like that why don’t we do something that stands out from all people? Do something that amaze them and stand out among your friends

A Reply to YOU......

2008-06-04T19:51:00.000-07:00

Being used is really not a good word to say someone. Sometimes, you may have feel that you haven being used, but think from other perspective. Are you willing to being used by that person? YES I DO. Surely if you love someone, you are willing to do anything or everything for him/her. Used, unconditional sacrifice, anything for him/her because as for you, he/she is your everything. Feelings are unquestionably hard to control. Sometimes, things that you think may not be consistent as what you feel. Simple example, by right something that I not suppose to do, but when follow my heart, I have done it. However, I always wonder whether I should do like that. Doubt myself. You cannot blame me for what I feel, and what I felt in my heart because it is something that you will never understand. What I felt in my heart is not what I have in mind. And surely I did not ask anything in return from you over what I have sacrificed because I knew you have also done the same for me. But at least, just a simple appreciation will do. That’s what I felt and what I have in mind.

Arranged LiFe

2008-05-31T21:49:00.000-07:00

Do you prefer your life being arranged for you? Everything being arrange nicely and neatly for you. Why people have such thinking? Depend on other people to arrange for you. I believe that we are responsible over our own life. If so, are you going to regret for something that you should done but till now haven done anything? Or you rather do not want made wrong decision that will make you regret? In this life, there are a lot of choices for us to be made. We are what we are today because of the choices we made in the past. Have no regrets in our life. I just do not hope that some of you all praying everyday hoping to get a chance to go back in time and make correction. As a conclusion, life is not like movies where we can replay, rewind, and fast forward, therefore have no regrets and take those bad decisions as a lesson. Lesson of life.

BeinG UseD

2008-05-31T21:44:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feels I am being used, sometimes I feels that all of what I have done is not appreciated, sometimes I feels what for I am doing all this, sometimes does it worth it I done all this and sometimes makes me wonder whether I am right or not. But surely one simple answer “don’t know” is not going to solve anything. Ever think of why are you standing here for? Ever wonder have you made a correct decision? Or most of the times you ask someone to make decision for you? Or you will just depend on god? I believe that our fate is in our hand and choice are for us to made and not made for us. Whether it is our destiny or not, surely we have to made our decision and select our path wisely and intelligently. Once decision is made, hold on to it and make changes if needed.

Scattered All OveR

2008-05-28T19:12:00.000-07:00

I’ve done a lot of things to get my mind off her. Time surely plays an important role here. Should I break off all contacts with her? Must I do that? As for now, I tried to get my life back by gathering pieces that had scattered all over. I tried to get on my feet and continue on with my life. Why is it so hard to be done? I need to go on and surely I do not want my life continue like this. Body without soul. Hardly go through each day of my life. What had happen cannot be undone. Things that we’ve lost hardly retrieve back again same as previous.

Beach. A place that really makes my mind calm, feels peace, quite and etc. I came here to clear my mind and made up a choice, to live on and to forget. What is mine surely is mine. Even if I let her go, she will eventually come back to me. But even if she would not, I do what also, she will not coming back to me.

I saw this quote on the net previous day and I feel it’s quite meaningful.

FiRe BurNinG

2008-05-28T19:08:00.000-07:00

Maybe you have everything in this world; good job, good health, good relationship with friends, very wealthy, a lot of money to spend and enough for the rest of your life. But life like this seems missing something. Guess what? LOVE. Without love life is just like a body without soul. It is not something that we should ignore.

Falling in love is so easy, but it is hard to keep the flame of love continuously burning. Thus, before falling in love, better know the person well and make sure that person is truly sincere to you.

Love gives meaning to our life. Love makes our life more colourful, interesting, excitement, and etc. And without love, life in meaningless. There are people who live alone, and happy by themselves but do you really want that? Love is meant for life and life is for love. It is easy to fall in love but it is hard to keep the fire burning. Surely this is about how we preserve the fire and make fire last forever. This requires work of two people and not only one side. Egotistic person makes our life miserable because they only care about themselves and ignore the feelings of people that care about him/her. Therefore it is okay to let go or get rid of this kind of people as soon as possible!! “Short pain better than long pain” (in Cantonese)

Ghost Of You - MLTR

2008-05-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

Summer's ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
with my heart in one

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

[Release:]

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

[Outro:]

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep colliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you........

Pretending

2008-05-18T20:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we need to pretend that we are alright and fine. Sometimes we just do not want to worried people beside you. Sometimes we just do not want people pity on us. Sometimes you just do not want to be realized by other people. But how long we need to pretend to be like this? It is just like carrying a Time Bomb. When we try to hide out feeling in front of people, deep inside our heart, surely feels so hurt, so pain, so upset. “Sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit” BoooMM!!

Forget him/her!

2008-05-18T20:32:00.000-07:00

Angry= torturing yourself over someone else’s mistakes.

As for me, no point keeps angry as this going to make your life miserable. Why don’t we just be cheerful and happy?

Same goes to sad.

As what I think, no point keep continue to torture yourself over someone that do not know how to appreciate you. This is my definition of sad or angry.

Even we keep on sad, things are not going to change expect you going to worry people beside you. Accept the truth and face the reality that even without him/her you can live happy. Friends and family are always being there for you, always! Keep this in mind. Do not be stubborn! Listen to what your friends or family’s advice. Logically, there are no exact ways to overcome this, it depends on how you choose and how you want to handle it.

As for now, surely you will never able to forget him/her as he/she has become part of your life. But do not take it as the end of the world. You should not have think of anything about commit suicide! Surely you are willing to die for someone you love, but are you going to die over someone that does not love you anymore? Forget, slowly, and patiently. No need rush as Time Heals All Wound. Right?

100 ReASoNS WHY I LoVe YoU

2008-05-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

I love you because your beauty
I love you because you are my love
I love you because I can trust your honesty
I love you because your loyalty to me
I love you because I believe you
I love you because I thinking of you every moment
I love you because of your kindness
I love you because of what you are
I love you because your personality
I love you because I just feels that way when I see you
I love you because I want to spend my life with you
I love you because I want to be by your side
I love you because I want to see you every day
I love you because your understanding with me even when I don’t deserve it
I love you because you always can make me laugh or smile even at times when I don’t want to
I love you because your gentle voices, sounds
I love you because your gentleness
I love you because you are always concerned about me
I love you because I like the way you hold me
I love you because your incredible eyes
I love you because I like the way you walk
I love you because I like the way you talk
I love you because I like your craziness to me
I love you because you make me feel like the most happy person on this world
I love you because I can depend on you.
I love you because I know when I have a problem I can come to you.
I love you because when we have a problem, we always together find a solution to it.
I love you because you always encouraging me
I love you because the way you makes me feel about myself
I love you because you say I LOVE YOU
I love you because you makes me looking forward for tomorrow
I love you because YOU LOOK Gorgeous!
I love you because I like the way you kiss me
I love you because I care about you so much
I love you because you love me for what I am
I love you because I need you
I love you because I want to spend my time with you
I love you because I feels comfortable be with you
I love you because you have a beautiful soothing/soft voice.
I love you because you’ll give me a hug when I need one
I love you because you are forgiving
I love you because without you, my life just feels different
I love you because without you, I cant concentrate
I love you because without you I cant do things right
I love you because without you I always feels lonely
I love you because I want to see you everyday
I love you because you are easy to get along with
I love you because what you are
I love you because you are different from others
I love you because I feels empty without you
I love you because I want you to tell me how you love me everyday
I love you because I like the way you look at me right before you tell me you love me.
I love you because you can make me more happy than any person can
I love you because your faithfulness
I love you because of the sweet present you give me
I love the way you look at me and tell me how much love you
I love the way you surprise me sometimes
I love you because your always concerned about me
I love you because you can read my mind.
I love you because you always think of me first instead of yourself.
I love you because I can always forgive what you have done
I love you because you are not greedy
I love you because you always make me feel better
I love you because you able to go well with my family
I love you because you are confident
I love you because you are strong
I love you because you always blush when I say sweet things
I love you because I can speak my mind and feelings freely with you.
I love you because you care of me
I love you because no other person out there can take over your place
I love you because we can discuss our future
I love you because able to foresee our future life
I love you because you are interesting
I love you because whenever I think of you, it makes me feels happy
I love you because you always ask my opinion on things
I love you because you easily jealous over me and my friends, shows that you care
I love you because you makes my life wonderful
I love you because you makes my life full of joy
I love you because you are my sunshine
I love you because you bring hope to my life
I love you because you give me some space
I love you because you remain loyal to me
I love you because you are always so perfect to me
I love you because you have a nice family
I love you because you care of my feelings
I love you because you are so perfect to me
I love you because I like the way you look into my eyes
I love you because I am happy when I see you
I love you because you are adorable
I love you because you are so sweet
I love you because you are so detail in doing things
I love you because you give 100% on everything you done
I love you because you are so cute when you are mad
I love the way you play around with me.
I love you because without you in my life, there’s nothing.
I love you because you are forgiving.
I love you because you care about me so much
I love you because you are the one in my heart
I love you because you always comfort me and give me a shoulder to cry on when i need it
I love you because you are my first thought in the morning, and my last thought at night.

There’re still thousands or millions of reason why I love you. But the main reason…. Is just…. I LOVE YOU!!

Destiny

2008-05-09T03:04:00.000-07:00

Do you believe that everything is being arranged for us by God? Our fate? Destiny? This depends on our beliefs. I do believe in this kind of matter as I experience before. Last time, I still remember clearly. That day, when I come back from school, I walk home and I nearly being hit by a motor. And really happens. Few days after that, I involved in an accident, broken leg and have to walk using tongkat. Coincident? This depends whether you want to believe or not. I believe. It seems like it is set for me to involve in accident but I escape that day. Believe it or not?

There is no free lunch. There are no easy things in this world. We must bear in mind that this is only challenges created by God to test us. In relationship, there may be a lot of obstacles and hardships but surely nothing can stop us if we believe and trust on each other, right? Well, I think we should not give up or else what we have gone through will be meaningless. Our sacrifice, time forgone, resource used, and etc, all of this will be wasted if we give up.

Never give up!! No Pain No Gain!!

Right??

2008-05-09T02:41:00.000-07:00

When we are in love, we unable to see things clearly and think wisely. But is it ok to act so? We may unable to control our feelings but at least do not let the feeling take over your mind. Consider whether it is correct to do that. In relationship, there is no right or wrong. But in reality, what you are doing may perhaps be wrong. That is why we must be able to think wisely, intelligently and rationally. Love can makes us do something that is stupid, nonsense or foolish. People say love makes people goes blind. It seems like this is true. For example, nowadays we often heard about news of teenagers commit suicide over love. This is a very foolish act and unforgivable.

We are just a tiny existence in this world. Even if we died, nothing in this world will going to change. Things will still go on as usual as time slowly goes on. The people that will be intensely hurt are your parents. So, dying for someone that does not love you anymore, is not worth it!!

Feelings

2008-05-08T21:19:00.000-07:00

Our feeling is so hard to convey in words. We unable to control our feelings although we have set our mind not to think about it. Yesterday, i saw her at Queensbay Mall, with other guy. I told myself not to think about this matter again. But my feeling is hard for me to control. After seeing her with him. I can’t stop thinking about her again. I really regret coming here. If I did not come here yesterday, maybe I am able to take this matter easily and forget her slowly.
Everything has its first time. Although I have know about this about a week ago, but I did not personally see him and her. I felt so sad and heartbreaking. I just do not want to keep this inside my heart. I just want to release whatever inside me, and that’s why I tell you how I feel. I know that you had advised me so many times to let go of her and I really really have let you down. That is what I feel at the moment and honestly I do not think that way. I am still in progress to forget her and surely I will remember what you told me…all the time.....

SO SORRY……..

Wed 07, 2008

2008-05-08T21:13:00.000-07:00

Long time I din watch ghost movie already. Quite amusing as I get shock easily. I do not have this kind of feelings for quite some times already. Thank you for accompanying me today. Today you look totally different from before, you look gorgeous. You look matured, stunning, striking, pretty, sweet and beautiful. Erm, I din mean that usually you’re not pretty la. Just, today you looked so different and I almost can’t recognize you d. Haha!! Anyway, I just hope you’re not bored of listen to my stories and bla bla bla. The movie was great, “The Ghost Portrait” but, usually ghost movies doesn’t have any happy conclusion (No Ending).=.=”. And the lunch at Little Oasis was nice too. Well, quite fun and happy spending time with you and looking forward for other time again…ok? Haha.. Too bad I unable to snap picture of you. Honestly, you look great!!

Sacrifice

2008-05-08T21:07:00.000-07:00

When we fall in love to someone, we are willing to sacrifice anything to him or her without any payment or rewards. Moreover, we are ready to accept all strengths and weaknesses of our partner without any question. We are willing to spend the next of our life together with him or her without any regrets. No matter what happens, we are sacrifices our time, money and whatever that we have just to be with that person and always tries to make the person happy.

Source: Lim Chean Hooi BBA, UNITAR Critical Thinking, Semester Jan 2008, Individual Presentation

The question is how much you willing to sacrifice? Your future? Do you risk your future? What if the one we willing to sacrifice everything for him/her do not worth all these? Ever consider of this point? Are you going to give up your opportunity to go study abroad just because of a girl you know for about a year? Are you? Will you ever regret if he/she does not appreciate what you have done to him/her? In this world, what most important should become our aim and objective which is education and money. For example, equip with only SPM qualification is not going to bring you anywhere.

You may think that without education, as long as we work hard, we still can survive, is this right? Work hard for your whole life? Think this way, works hard requires time. This means less time spend with our love one. This happens all the time. Problems will slowly arise. Stress of work will come along too. Disaster coming!! Potential problems, right? Think about it. Haha…

On the other hand, people says if you really love a person you are willing to do whatever things just to make the person happy. Even he/she do not realize your existence, you are still willing to sacrifice for him/her. Maybe this is right. Loving someone does not mean must to be together with him or her, as long as he/she is happy, then it is enough for you already. right?

Tree Vs Forest

2008-05-08T21:04:00.000-07:00

People once told me, do not give up the whole forest because just a single tree. I think it is correct-half. There is a big world out there and a lot of people waiting for you but think of yourself first. Are you the type of people that is “choosing” or waited to be “choose”? I know that in this world surely there are people that will be suitable for you but do you take risk? If you unable to find one, you going to be single for the rest of your life. Do you take the risk? Of course I am not talking about myself. My grandma told me, I am still young, after finish my studies and then slowly find one. True! But, on the other hand, how if the one you are letting go is really the one you really love? The opposite of the phase “do not give up the whole forest because just a single tree”. If you really find the one you really love, you are willing to give up the whole forest just because of a tree.

Parents

2008-05-08T21:00:00.000-07:00

I have a question in mind. Do you all ever ignore what your parent says? How about if your parent asks you do not be together with the one you love? What will you do? Run from house? I have no answer in mind, but based on my personal experience, you will follow what your parent says, right? As for me, what we see today may not what we see tomorrow. Agreed? Anything can change in 24 hours time, human easily change. For example, today I love you, tomorrow, I love you not. Even relationship that already last for few months, years, or few years time can diminish in just one night. Anyway, this is just what I think. Parent disagree must have their own reasons. Example, that guy or girl is a smoker, alcoholic, jobless, poor, lazy, and etc. Mostly people nowadays will goes against what their parent and do what they wants as what they have in their mind. But try to think on your parent side, they surely do not want to see you to be with that kind of person. What we see today may not what we see tomorrow, people we trusted and believe may not be the same person again tomorrow.

People easily change but will you regret? Think logically, your parents are correct. Think wisely or else you will regret in the future. Surely you will!!

Friend Forever...

2008-05-08T20:59:00.000-07:00

I am glad having friends to support and care of me at this moment. When I am sad, you all console me, comfort me and back me up. A smile can make people happy, love can make our world go around and a friend makes my world worth living. Thank you all. When I think back of the sad moment, my life is so down and meaningless. It is same as an airplane without pilot, a car without driver, a clock without battery, and a man without heart. Maybe that time I just feel lost, having no direction, no aim, no goals and no objective.

A famous quote sounds “we reliant on parents at home while we reliant on friends in outside”. It means that the valuable of friends to us. A true friendship makes life more worth living.

Source: Lim Chean Hooi BBA, UNITAR Critical Thinking, Semester Jan 2008, Individual Presentation

But for now, I am so happy and glad having you all to support me and cheer me up. To those that accompany go through this hard time, thank you so much. Thanks all.

Understand me?

2008-05-08T20:55:00.000-07:00

How well do you understand on a person? Or how will you be able to trust on a person? Surely, it is based on our personal experience. When two people in love, they must trust believe and have confident towards each other. When you spend time with him/ her you will be able to understand him/her better. Thus, we place faith on each other and hoping that they would not do something that would shatter the faith on each other. Both of us may not be together all the time, believing in each other is what we can do and must have no doubts towards our partner.

When you understand a person, you will able to guess what he/she going to do. For example, you know your partner so well that you know he/she would not do betray you and together with other people. In life, this is a common thing. People often treat love as just leisure of life. Once fed up, they will get new or get change. And I believe that everyone have right to be selfish, right? (Egoism)

Love at beginning is quite sweet and happy; once people get bored with same stuff surely they want a new breath in their relationship. For example, here comes the third party.

Funny when think back, if this is going to happen how you going to prevent it? Or can we?

2008-05-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

Education requirement in today’s working area are getting higher and higher. If you are in secondary school, better study hard and get a place in local university. Anyhow, get at least a degree; if not, what you earned may be enough for yourself but not for your wife and children. What do you all think? Even if we choose the partner of our life, this significantly applies. Are you going to choose a husband who is just a factory operator? Or are you going to choose a wife who is lazy, inconsiderable and do not know how to cook? Do not think that life is what you all see in television. Choosing a wife or a husband without caring what he or she does. You again may feel sweet and happy at the beginning. But life in reality continue after a “happy ending” as what we usually see in movie, drama or television. Will be going to be happy with your family condition? You may say never mind, but in reality, do you? Can you?

We may be happy but think back, for how long? For the short term? Or for the rest of our life?

Decide carefully. You have choice in your hand and hopefully you will not regret with your decision. This this way, "long pain better short pain"

2008-05-08T20:44:00.000-07:00

Love is abstract; we cannot touch, cannot see and can’t hear whereas we can only feel the existence of love with only our heart. When two people decide to be together, they have to trust and believe on each other. Whenever any problem arises, both are responsible to that problem and should not be responsibility on any one side. Do you all agree with me? For instance, when one side give a cold treatment, therefore the other side should know what to do and how to handle him/her. We should not think that he/she is the one who wrong first therefore he/she must apologize to me. Trust me, if this keeps on, both side will suffer eventually.

Love should not be treated as an amusement of life. In this world many people who do not know the real significance of love. Love does not have a real explanation. It depends on us to interpret and see it. Love seems has magic power because sometimes because of love might do something beyond our capability. We can feel the present of love, the warm feeling, and the attraction reaction to another. If we just planned to fool around in this matter, surely this will hurt feelings of people around you. Therefore, think wisely and rationally before you want to “get on two boats at the same time”.

Source: Lim Chean Hooi BBA, UNITAR Critical Thinking, Semester Jan 2008, Individual Presentation

Reality

2008-05-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

Human beings are so naïve. Drama, TV, movies and etc makes people think that it is right to follow our heart on doing something. Is this correct? People in love may say, I’m willing to follow you everywhere, even become a beggar also I want to be with you. Do you all agree? This may sound SO SWEET, but ask yourself do you really can do that? Unlike in Drama, people’s life and fate are determined by the script writer. Therefore you’ll be always correct to follow your heart as there’ll “always” be a happy ending. Agreed?

But, can we apply in the reality?

As for me, this is ridiculous, as in life there is no turning back and we’ll regret if the decision we made are wrong. Regret for the rest of our life. My concept is, think using our mind, not our heart. Think wisely and rationally because once we made up our mind, this will surely affect our life and the people around us. And, do we really willing to become a beggar? Or you all prefer to find someone better, reliable, “loaded” and love us more that we love him/her. If we find out that the person we’re in LOVE with is very irresponsible and lazy, are you going to continue the rest of your life with him? If you are able to change him/her then it’s ok. But how if you can’t? Think about it…using your head… not heart….

[Choose one to think or else you going to be confused]

Hahaha!!!

Trustworthy

2008-05-08T20:42:00.000-07:00

Some people say that couple should not see each other every day. Do you all agree? This is because people say that if we see each other every time, we easily get bored. Is this correct? Some people say that not seeing each other for an hour is just like not seeing each other for several days. Is this correct too? It depends on us to make up our mind. I personally believe that if we see each other we are able to spend time more with each other. And we will be able to get to know each other better.

How about trustworthy?

Do you all (couples out there) trust each other?

Without any hesitation?

We trust a person based on our understanding of the person. When we are in a relationship, trusting each other is very important and essential. We are working everyday in different district or study in different part in this world and do not really know about each other at different places. This will depends on our bond and trust towards each other. Can we say that when one side is over trust is wrong? We trust the people we love and surely we have to decide to trust him/her. Therefore we place a trust and confident to him/her.

The question is “Are over trust is wrong?”

We place faith in each other and when problem occurs CAN we be BLAME because we trusted him/her? Funny!!

The World..

2008-05-08T20:41:00.000-07:00

I realize that there is no use for us being miserable, even we depressed, nothing will change. We can’t go back in time to change the past. Maybe in the future, does have this kind of machine. But, I think by that time surely we all already overcome our sorrow, unhappiness and misery. That time, are you going to change the history if u can? Are you going to go through all of those same things again? As for me, the world isn’t going to wait, halt or stop for us to be sad and sob. From time to time, this kind of things we can straightforwardly say, but to do it, it’s so tough. Same as me, even all of this time we have been sad but nothing going to change if lock yourself inside room and shed tears under your pillow. Correct? And those guys out there, don ever think of commit suicide, he/she is not going to come back even you die. People may be sad for a certain period, but you’ll be forgotten sooner or later. Don’t ever commit such stupid act!

Appreciate

2008-05-08T20:40:00.001-07:00

Human being are so unique. We all learn from mistakes, same as things we have lost. when something is wrong, we immediately take action and implement it make sure things come back as what they suppose to. WE will only start to appreciate when we lost that things. Whether that things is important or not, small or big, expensive or cheap, also does not matter. Someone who u treated cold last time, and when the person is gone, you will feel emptiness deep inside your heart. Somethings, which u only keep it inside a box, never open to see it. After the feelings is gone, now you open it everyday also meaningless. I've been thinking these few days, and i realize that, we are not too late to start appreciate the things we lost, just hope that its not far too late........

Life never like this before....

2008-05-08T20:39:00.000-07:00

Life gonna continue anyway.... but..i cant let it go just like that..... but... what can i do.... nothing??!! Haiz..Sad memories still fresh inside my mind.. keep hunted my mind whenever I'm alone.. i cant concentrate in doing anything also. when i open my book to study, i stare at the word....for so so so long...and my mind was not there... i tried to find something to do... to keep my mind busy all the time.. start hiking every evening.but.... do i have the determination to continue doing this....do i?? this Question which i do not know the answer..............
I need to face it and prepare myself for the worst scenario that would happen..but i never predicted this would happen...to me..........

1st May 2008

2008-05-08T20:03:00.001-07:00

I've never being so sad in my life before.... NEVER!! i try my best not to think so much..however... i keep think and think end up being more sad.. I'm so LOST... i want to find something to do to drunk myself up. Rather than thinking of those sad stuff... i think i have to face the reality... but...but...whenever lying down..i begin to recall those memories... GOD....Please help me... i really don't know what to do already.. This feeling kills me.. I feels so HARD to go through my life like this.. After all I've done... this is what i get. I really need to go through this but memories of past killing me every seconds.
"HaPpY Over My StuPidiTy... Sad CuZ BeiNg CheATed... AnGrY Over DisHoNesTy... DiSaPPoiNtEd Of ThE OuTCoMe... DAmN HaTe My LiFe..."
I'm so hate myself...
I'm so dumb to let it END like this...
ARGGGGGG.............Damn hate myself!!!!!!