Forgetting Sarah Marshall

It starts with this guy Peter Bretter who was dating this girl Sarah and she ends up breaking up with him because of another guy dumps him for an English rock star, Aldous Snow no idea... hahaha.. Later on, he gone through the whole hell-like breakup moment and he took some advice from docs, friends, etc.. well, after quite a numbers of one-night stands, **womanizer...lol** he ends up by a rebound where he ended up crying and crying and crying because he recall the memories with Sarah. **sad sad sad**. After that, Peter finally takes his step-brother Brian’s advice to go for vacation to clear up his mind of her. Guess wat, he ends up going to Hawaii where he is AGAIN confronted by his worst nightmare. Haha!! He ends up meeting Sarah and her new boyfriend. WHAT a coincident!! The world is so small! **what a luck**

At the first 10++ minutes, we learned two things:

1) Peter being dumped by Sarah after 5 years plus.

2) Peter showing us his penis.**zzz..wondering how he's going to move on with his life**

~I wonder if the Penis scene necessary~

At first, the hotel initially didn’t have any rooms open except for a super expensive suite but, lucky for Peter, a hotel employee, Rachael, pity and felt bad for him so she gave him the suite. **HmHmHm** where she later on interested in him, hanging with him, getting him involved in some confidence-building activities, and etc. In addition, he also meets a series of people whom help him "forget" Sarah. All this eventually around making him feels better about himself and also the break-up. Later on after all this and that, Peter comes to a bit of “self-realization” about who he actually want to be with and what he wants to do with life in the future. Funny scene when sarah shows her jealousy and soon after found out her new boyfriend was ten times worse than Peter was, it was already too late.

I found the movie to be somehow similar to what I used to be last time.

Someone who ever had their heart ripped out and cut into a billion pieces.

any comment???? haha

SOmething FrOm The Past

My past has made me who i am today. I cant change it nor go in time to fix back what ever things that we have done wrong. We can only go forward in time. Move on and look forward. We shape our lives with the decisions we make today and in the past. Our future and our destiny is not predetermined. Our choices will determine how our relationships turn out. Make use of our past as a guideline for you to become a better person in the future.

While i was looking around my stuff..
I found this...
Something i kept for quite some time already,
A present from someone...
Hm..
As i recall, it has been few years already..
about 5 years already?
And also... this...
wonder what is this?
yes... a key!

Fight and Defend!

Life is short, as human beings we are unconstrained to make our own precious option. If you keep doubt yourself on everything or every time, you are wasting your time. Ever think of this question? What will happen next? What will happen in the future? Where will I end to if I choose this way? And where would I end up choosing that way? No one knows the answer and there’s no way you can know your future if you keep wondering. Choose you way correctly and FIGHT for it. Put in efforts and defend what you believe!!

Special Person?

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call!

You are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the emails or SMS messages in your phone because of one message from that special someone.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend”, but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction.

You care about that person and yet you denied it

You realize that you cannot do everything well and always think of something else when the special person is not there.

You think of this special person every minute, yet you scared admit it.
if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person (NO DOUBT)

what you're waiting

Love is something unique, whether it strikes at us now or future, it’s surely one process that everyone will surely have to gone through one day. It'll be always brings an indefinable feelings and emotions that hardly describe in any words. It can only be felt and sense, and totally intangible and untouchable. Only those who are responsible for it will really know what goes in it. Being in love the greatest things that ever happen to me. Life is short, as human beings we are entitled to make our own precious choices. To those who are single, let me ask you all one question. Do you want life to be blessed with happiness and love? Don’t you want to be loved? Who doesn't? Then what you're waiting for? Find yourself a love one. XD

What is love?

What is love? Anyone can tell me your definition of love? Guess there’s no definite answer though. Basically, love is one of the most complicated questions for all human being. As time has passed by, many relationships have bloomed and so as love. But still, no one able gives a proper definition of love. No one yet! To some people “Love is a friendship that sets on fire”. You definitely have to go all the way around discovering it”. No matter how you define love or how much you feel it, love is for sure, the essential in for everyone that ever lives.
Anyway
Let me know how you define love, k?

Realistic World...

Love is blind. But definitely the world is a different world from what we watch in drama or movies. This world is realistic. If we make the wrong choice, that going to be our life already.
Even though the choice is wrong but if we realize and turn back instead of keep wrong and wrong. There is always never too late to turn back. The wrong path will never be the right path if we did not realize and turn back. The wounded part will never heal if we left it unattended.

Even if you were had another try
A chance to start over,
do you think that you2 could make it?
But if you were had the choice
The decision to make
Do you know how to make the right choice?
If there’s a chance
would you ever even take it?

As easy as memorizing a. b. c.

Today when I wake up. The first things I think of is you. The image of you pop up automatically in my head. Your sweet smile, your soft voice, and all about you just came up in my mind. Not just in the morning, but also all the day. Thinking about you all day just having the feeling you in my head makes me so happy. But when I start to think that if I can’t have you, then just break into pieces and scattered all over. I don't think there anyone in this world that would able to replace you. Ever. Still, I hope that I can rest my worries but this impossible. I do not know what you think about me. Whether you ever think that I annoy you or you hate me or the opposite. But it seems like you to be my only key. Those 3 words I longing to say. But, as I think over day by day, I believe you would run away from me. The possibility is high and it was so as easy as memorizing a. b. c.

Unpredicted future

You do not know or could not predicted the future ahead of us. You do not know whether I’ll change into a different person in the future. But I know that if you do not accept the truth today, there will never be a future of us. And you also will never know the future.
Today, I realize a fact.
There are no such things as meant to be.
In this life we have to work for everything that we want.
Even to protect someone, we must be ready to sacrifice.
How if she really meant to be with me?
Funny when think back as I said those words before.
We just have to stand firm on decision that we have made and be strong and believe in the choice we made.
Love is blind VS realistic world.

The war that rages inside my head

I’m so tired today
It feels that the war just ended
The war that rages inside my head. I almost lose my sanity and my calmness. There’s one kind of feelings that still haunted me. Still I couldn’t stop running from it. However I cant face it also. Frankly, I just don’t know what I should do. People keeps talk about me. Whether good or bad, that’s beyond my knowledge. But I aware that nothing that I can do. A friend ask me before, why I’m different from before? Guess even myself does not have the answer as I, myself don’t even realize.
Wonder why and what people talk about me anyway?
My life is an open book. I’m willing to share anything. No games and no lies. This is what I think of right now. As me anything you want but do not accuse me of something that is not the truth.

Something that I’ve done is not appreciated

Something that I’ve done is not appreciated. How sad is that? What for I’m doing that and why am I doing so? Guess if there is no one to appreciate what I’m doing, I think its better for me to quit doing it. This is so unlike me.
The story of my life should be a chapter that full with happiness and cheers.
Why my blog have turn into this?
I hate this so much and I’m so miserable right now.
Doesn’t seems that there is anyone to talk to.
Right on this moment, 8th September, 2.14pm
I feels my life is so empty. Nothing.
Black and white. That’s what I see things right now.
Nothing to do. No one to talk to. And absolutely nothing I can do.
My blog is the only things that I can do.
I do hope that no one ever reads this. but deep inside my heart a tiny thought of I hope that someone read this too.

Something has change

Something has change in me. Something that myself even myself did not realize till now. Does this shows a good sign of change? Or something bad that I not suppose to change of? I do not know and I wish I knew. Today I have a bad dream. Some dream that makes me regret of something that I did not take my courage in doing it. The things that really makes me think of WHY I did not complete the things. Something that I should have done quite some time ago but I did not do it. This really makes me regret thinking of it. Why why?
I begin to hate myself. I do not have confident on this kind of matter. I do not have the courage to do it. Unlike in class, for every Question, there is always an exact answer. However in this, there is no exact answer. But I knew that if I did not have the courage to do it, how can I see the changes?
I’m so tired.
Tired of the war that rages in my head.
War of opposition styles and ways of thinking. I’m so tired of all this.
Maybe I think too much. Something that I should not have think of. But if I do not think of it. Does it solve the problems? Its beyond my control. Someway somehow I just regretted of everything that happen and every steps that I’ve taken.
I’m so tired of my life. my appearance does shows a happy and have no worries character. However, am i?
I’m just tired of all that happens.
Guess I’ll stay out of everything for time being.

8th September 2008

Here today 8th September 2008, 12.35pm, sitting down here thinking and doubt myself. what have i become. why have i done such way and why am i reacting in that particular manner. something missing makes me realize that that something is so important in my life. something that cannot be replaceable. something that you cannot find it by just go for shopping in shopping mall or open ur internet and find it through net. something that i've been missing and that means alot to me. sitting here calmly taking a deep breath and i've thought through of it.
i missed you alot.

2nd July 2008

Today, 2^nd July 2008

Dear Diary,

Today my heart has skipped a beat,

What?
I was so excited till I lost my mind,

Why?

A girl was walking down the street,
Who?

It was her,

How?

Her beauty was one-of-a-kind,

Somehow she was different from other day

I waited her for a little while,

Somewhere in her neighborhood,

I’m suppose to meet her for dinner,

Patiently, uncomplainingly, tolerantly, unwearyingly

I wait for her,

Although she turns out quite late,

However that does not bothers me,

It was worth waiting.

She was so beautiful that day.

She has done many cute things,
I observed her silently
Just following her around was fun,
It was like in movies,

Dear diary,

This day

The chance to see,
Everything I saw in her today,
And it's possible she could be,
The one that can actually makes my heart beat stops.

Key to my heart

There is this girl who can makes my heart beats faster

every time she looks at me,

everytime she smile at me,

everytime she talk to me,

even sometimes she able to,
She makes me smile all the way
She makes me laugh out loud
She makes me mad somehow
She makes me sad sometimes

People been asking, wondering, questioning
What's so great about her anyway

Why am I falling on her?
She seems like any college girls at early twenties,
To tell you the truth I don't even know the answer why
Why my feelings for her are holding me strongly
In my heart
She has the key to my heart

If only you knew...

If only you knew,

You are the reason of,

me waking up in this morning,

with a smile,
You are the reason of,

me cant wait to go to bed each night,

To met you in my dreams,

Night and day hardly past,

if I never thought of you.

If only you knew,

That you are my medicine,
because I’m addicted,
to just being with you,
this is just my silly thought,
because I knew it won’t become true,

But I’m looking forward to it.

If only you knew,

The way I feel towards you ,
is unexplainable by any words
I wish I knew how you think of me,
and if you ever told me..that would be totally unbelievable,

And that was the greatest news in my life.

If only you knew,

How I really feel towards you,
the way I sees you,
The thought of you in my mind,
the reason why I love you,
If only you really knew.

Simple sign...

Everyday call me if you can
Everyday call me when you can
Everyday call me all the time
Each day for a thousand times.

Sometimes, little things that you do, words that you said, way of you react,
And how little the things are, it does matter,
To me, the things that you gave me more than a gift,
It was a precious souvenir only from you,
Sms me to prove that you care,
As what I do each moment,
To check if you are alright there,
Just a simple sign of I do care and concern

Once I heard a story.......

Once I heard a story, a story seems I knew it even before I hear it.

It’s about a guy and how his world turns up side down
All of this started when he met this girl. The perfect girl that would just make his life complete
Ever since the first time they talked, all he can do is think of her every moment,

he just think of her and that’s makes his hearts beats faster
and it beats even stronger each times since that day, the day he met her,

Since that day, he decided to gave her his heart and says “My heart beats for you”

Somehow thing does not goes well. There are always obstacles or barrier.

Unlike fairy tales, thing often goes well and there is a happy ending waiting.

How’s reality?

It’s hard to find someone that we truly love.

That girl that complete his life, but is he the guy that will be completed the girl’s life?

When he saw her in front of her, before he knew it his mouth opened and come out "hi"

She just smiled, Everyday they talked a little more and more,

And each day he began to like her a more than before

He realize that how life has to be, eventually everything becomes our past
But your memories will always last, our past remains inside our memory.
With that, he knew that not all love is meant to be,

Things cannot be let it be natural and happen on their own,

Happiness is in our hand and it’s up to us to grab it with our own hand
we have to learn to hold on and don't give in easily
to stand tall and prepare to sacrifice anything
And also believe in ourselves

Because…

The day will eventually come

When we have to protect what we think is right, the one that we loves
Open our eyes to see things no one could ever see
I know this because..

This is a story about me...